Daggone it!

Another flare! My Sed Rate and CRP haven't been this high since I got sick in 2005. I knew I was worse, but needed the confirmation/validation of the lab tests before I believed my own judgment. I could write a long treatise on validation and invalidation and what it is like to be seriously ill and look fine...I have received so many doubting comments that I doubt myself, now. Can you tell it is a touchy issue?

The dizziness is intermittent, and not disabling (just disconcerting and unpleasant). The headaches and face pain are pretty constant,
but seem to stay at or below 5 on the pain scale (out of 10). My big toes hurt, which is another of my vasculitis warning symptoms (go figure).

I am surprised that my inflamatory blood markers are so high. Is it because I am
on a lower dose of prednisone? Or is it because my ex-husband has taken me
to court again? I am half serious about that--does emotional stress trigger
worsening vasculitis? I'll let you know what Dr. Shinada says.

My attorney has sat for a total of 5 hours now, waiting for our case to be called. Between furlough days, a missing court reporter, and an enormous backlog, I have a huge legal bill with no progress. It isn't my attorney's fault--I know she feels bad about it. It looks as though this is going to drag on through August. I wish Jay could be decent and honest in his dealings with me, but then, I didn't divorce him because he was a nice guy, eh? It still is painful, though, to be on the receiving end of malice.